I was a mum of 2 that smoked marijuana EVERYDAY and ALL DAY as much as I could, it eased my mind, the pain & the stress.

I use to get extremely high to the point where I slept & didn't even worry about my kids needs, I slept instead of feeding them,

I slept instead of taking them out & I slept instead of caring for them. I had 2 amazing babies who needed a mother but instead I chose to be an addict for weed.

Smoking it was good as a teenager but as I got older it just became a need not a want anymore.

When I had my first baby I smoked throughout my whole pregnancy not worrying about what it did or how it affected her, I was just worried about myself and what I WANTED.

As my baby got older she started talking saying things like "Mum I'm hungry feed me please" and my response was "I can't be bothered leave me alone I'm trying to sleep I'll feed you when I wake up", I woke up mid-day or around 2.

Eventually I fed her, showered her, clothed her & then the process just repeated itself over and over and over again. I relied on weed just as much as my big girl relied on me & that's not what a mother does, Marijuana ruined my life because it made me lazy, kept me from thinking about my future, kept me from doing what's best for me and mine.

DRUGS are used as an escape goat to help you run away from reality but it makes no sense? Because when you become sober again those same things you're trying to run away from in life are still there.

DRUGS are not the answer to anything in life, we need to face all our demons in order to become bigger & better for the little people we created they need us more than we've ever needed drugs.